Friday, January 10, 2014

Personal Blog:: Losing Time is a Problem - 1/10/14

So with this problem of DID I have the unfortunate problem of losing time. Now I really would like to know what I was doing and where I went. Cause I can wake up in bed close my eyes and then find myself in a book store. I freak, because I don't know how I got to the bookstore and freak because I'm hoping I'm dressed.  I always am dressed but I get scared just the same. I think I wouldn't be so worried about the blackouts if I knew where they are going. Like have a schedule on what they want to do that day and plan it out with me.  That doesn't sound hard, but if you knew me, you would know that this isn't going to be good.

Well last night an alter unloaded her problems to my husband, well, our husband. She was crying and trying to talk I guess. She did something that got me so mad, but can't undo. She made me lose a good friend by being her. She tried to prove something that I already knew, now I have one less friend in my life. They were truly a good friend. I guess only time will tell if we become friends again. I don't know what she did, but she did something so bad that made my friend think I was crazy. All truth aside, I am crazy. But he understood me and gave great advise. So currently I'm not happy with Sara, in fact I hate her. I tried to get back at her today.  I know she doesn't like V8 and mushrooms. So what did I do today, I went to Panda Express and ordered anything that has mushrooms and drank V8 all over the place.   Which now I'm beginning to think was more of a punishment to both of us. (I love V8 but to much really cause havoc on your stomach, just like prune juice.)

I know other people are out there and live with this, I would love to hear your stories. I'm not really well read in the subject, but I think I'm more of an expert since I live with it.

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